ESTRANGEMENT

      Appreciation, is a respect and gratitude of a person to show someone in their life how significant are they to them. " Give everything even if you got nothing back " - Yasmine Mogahed. Risks, is a 50/50 pass or fail. Still, if that someone is very important for you, your priorities become second handed. The affections, addictive, risky, painful yet once you achieved something from it. You are at ease, peace. To see someone smiles, happy is your objective. Sometimes, it is hard to lend a hand when none hands were being held out.  It is fun yet heart breaking but keep on going is your motto. To spend every second time but knowing you can't because you don't know who are you to them. Doubts, thoughts, uneasiness, uncertainty. 

     You see, nature is kind towards us, it gives us the opportunity to travel, discover the beauty and majestic serenity of it. Yet humans tend to take it for granted. Such disasters that caused destruction towards the nature. Still, clouds and rains turned into nature's remedies. To put it into an understanding way. We open our arm, letting people come in. Tried to close it so that you wont lose anybody. Still, humans are weak. Broken-hearted by it but someway somehow you feel great and happy when you are around them. You cast away the feeling of afraid of losing them. You threw all your uncertainty, tried to cherish every second of your time with your friends. Sometimes, it is hard to say I need you to guide me. Yes it is hard because of the upcoming answers is haunting us. 

     

     Some people has their own way on changing, some can do it by themselves, some can't. IT is painful when you try but failed. Surrounded by saints but still feel like a demon. I may have done something that I am not grateful in my past, but I am trying to change. Everybody will be given 2nd chances. I hope this is my 2nd chances. Ask me what are the bad things that I never did in my past. If I were to be put into grade , an A+ would be it. Still being proud is not what I am trying to be. Ashamed, disgusted, irritated by it. Sarcasm sometimes destroy the hopes of a person onto become and change into a good person. Show me that you care so atleast I know I have a person to hold on to. But I know, it is impossible. To have someone to hug you tight and say " I'll help you till the in end" is a fairytale.