SEIZED

Again, being the only person who tends to not to try to be sad, emotional, damaged is what I've become. Cursing myself, disgusted by the act. Yet letting those act define me. Ask me what is my best side and I'll point at you. The reality constantly keep on bringing me down. Never failed to do so. Applaud. None help has been given. Applaud. Hated pity but pity is what they provide. Applaud. Once a listener you became, now a loner you have become. Applaud. Being needed once you are and now a needy you have become. Applaud. Life of you can't ever reached to the happiest moment. Applaud. Thank you God. Applaud. Being that first choice you was once being able to be now are just the second best. Applaud. A sinner is a sinner and a saint will always have their own way to show you, sinners that you will never going to be like them. Applaud. Hey You, if you can do this to me, lets see what would you do to your beloved saints that are obsessively devoted to You when a sinner like me was torn apart when they didn't know on how to appreciate the help and my cares towards them. Applaud. Demons are made to deceit and deceive. Still, this Demon is made to help without getting the pay back, known, loved, appreciated, honored or even exist. Exist when he is needed. You really are powerful, now I know. Applaud. When I thought  I am saved by the saints, again wrong and stupid is what i can define my minds and thoughts. Saints won't help demons. They hated them. Demons are fleshes from hell. One touches of saints can help you to ignite your faiths and hopes. Bullshits. Merely. It's like you were being pulled out from drowning in the iced cold of blood water with angry waves keep on hitting and smashing you and when the times come for the saints to pull you out, they changed their mind. Right after you told them your secrets. Naked in the eyes of them. God. Yourself. And letting go of your weak grip is what they decided to do. Disappointed by the act. Yet need to accept for the fact that you will never be one of them.