PRESENT

Be patience. Be genuine. Be matured. Be strong. Have faiths. It'snot like you have lost your friends, they are still there but this time, they are not holding your hands. I never thought that my life would turn out to be this way. It's like you did something that you thought is right but at the end reality tells the other way. At some point in our life, there will be the time when you said to yourself, it's okay, if it's meant to be that way let it be. If it''s not then fine. I have been trying to take things easily, slowly, patiently and truthfully. From time to time, that strong determinations turned to be my only weaknesses. It kills me slowly without me feeling anything. I once considered myself as a compass, but not now. Things has changed. change as if I am not going to get my friends anymore. Doubts were playing in my mind whether to move on or move forward. I never made the decisions. It always has been the job of people around me. They seems to know what I am thinking. They scratch up my head, forcing my to open up secrets. They had abused me, leaving me naked. I ended up crawling, seeking for answers and helps. Still, I am just a weakling pretended to be strong. I disguised myself as a happy person, a joker is what I am. I laughed at the idea of me having what I want and need. Such a dreamer. I came to the point where tears no to stop falling, heart need to stop being stabbed by shadows from the unappreciated people and life must stop and be fair for once at least.