TO WHOM

It comes to the sense whereby you can no longer initiate any means of confrontation and communication because of how you feel and the experiences that almost took away you entire being has left the longevity of desperate needs to be found by the saints. The essence that you once claimed as yours is no longer since the touch of many beats has made you a person without pride but lust. The constant beats that often mishandled the entire journey of the one being almost the prince which in returns took a fall for the things he hasn’t done but had claimed just to protect his interests to be known as a person who sacrifices his loves for someone whom never knows his existence even after he dies. To whom he had conquered a royalty whom he can labelled as his, once upon a time before everything turned into ashes. To whom he the younger version of himself let the demonization of his soul and virginity getting ripped apart for he knows he shall be exposed to the reality of the insanity among lustful lovers. To whom himself had given the permission to touch and be touched by monsters whom had fucked up their way to only be thrown away into the depths of hell and despair.

PECULIARITY

Guts and wits that turned even the closest friends into enemies that they have swore to never become but fate has destined them to bicker and kill among themselves because that is how life let you know that you are not in control of anything. They may know of the things in the past but they surely weren’t aware that the things in the future weren’t in theirs’ control to begin with. They may seem close but even the Creator banished His creation out of ego. The catastrophe that has immersed within oneself has become the ultimate weapon that destroyed the sensibility of the neutrality and purity. Given the hindsight that could only be useful in the most irrelevant situation which has been mishandled through thick and thins of a human blood whom sacrifices his essence and soul to feed the being that is residing in his heart which is taking the life out of him in every single breathing. The devastation that has been put forward to diminish the nothingness of clarity which transcended the newly born bastard that rants and whines and curses and mocks every other being which he redeemed as side effects. The over dependence on the things that seemed crazy and hectic in away it destroys the essence of a person’s vulnerability and tangibility to become the inhumane bastard. In a way that he or she might destroy each other is more likely to happen since the destiny has written down the story of betrayal that they could never dare to escape. That’s the truth within the lies that will never end, you are desperately seeking for gratification and acceptance to be parts of group. in a way, it solemnly kills one’s wits to live happily when he or she knows the lies behind every said words are as hiatus as the expectations. The synchronization of both light and dark that embody clarity and void became the dominating essence that purifies the life of a prince whom had he sold him self to the needs and over demanding demon whom feed the energy that is keeping one’s heart beating. Trying to endure is out of question and accepting the fact that life will knock your senses into the conception of misfortunate events. The peculiarity of majestically emotions that surround the virginity of believers which incite needs to know and question on thoughts.

UNIDENTIFIED

To think that you are a part of something that has everything that what people call nowadays as privilege is something you should be thankful for. The life that has provide people with opportunities that can sometimes be unfair to certain people but overly nice towards some. You ought to think you are in the frame of cinematic life of a character that often encountered numerous adventures and you always find yourself in peace when you can feel pain and numb. The thoughts of being vulnerable and unable to breathe the air that is clogging your sanity as you try your possible not to be senile. Living his days and not being able to express his thoughts has made, Bleu feels as if his doesn’t belong to any group of people because he often sees the reality as scenes in the movies and he never really grasp the idea of reality and only lives in the idea of imagination. Bleu never seems to care about the things he often thinks and he is a one fucked up kid who is carving his path to the depths of nothingness bringing his torch of hopes and possibilities. Bleu never seem to care about him getting hurt just to provide the shelter that he often covers so people around him are happy. The idea behind this was, he never really believes that he is a part of someone who sees him as an equal human being. It is tiring for Bleu to live his life not being himself. He starts to to be negligible by drinking too much, religion that he holds is now just an idea that he portrays to people if it needs so. he never really thinks sex should be done after he gets married. so he sees his own self to people whom he considered are worth of the taste of him. Bleu never really thinks of himself as a potential mate because little that everyone knows, he is incapable to loving a person because of trust issues. Doesn’t matter how hard he tries, he fails, big time. he knows he needs attentions but he can’t possibly get a hold on the idea of being jealous all the time. Little that he knows, he is losing himself by giving parts of his soul and entity to others who engulf his identity and ripped them apart and threw them into the disparity of the void. Bleu has always been living his live imitating people whom he likes and tries his best to be like them because he has lost his identity the character that was supposed to make him as Bleu. g.