Experiences, it touches the deepest emotions in your heart. Life is all about us, experiencing something. Humans are different. Different people has different kind of problems. Not problems but tests. Our history teaches us on how to become human. Those hardwork that someone has been through. Ups and downs. Tears and spillage of emotions. We live, create our own stories. Religions as our guidance. I think, in my opinions, our life are different from one to another. Our way on living it, I am scared. Scared of moving into another dimension. I feel uneasy. I am fading from the reality. Craving for attentions. Hoping for hopes.disappear in our own shadows. Cast away. Senses gone. When you love your friend yet your friend didn't know. To tell but to be scared to tell the truth. Our life is insignificant but it is very important that we live it coz nobody else will did it for you. Like when someone comes into your life and half of you says " You are nowhere near ready" but the other half says " Keep them as your friends". But you know even if you tried so hard only God can decide it for you. I cried last night. My decisions someway somehow weren't what I expected it to be. I saw, heard, felt, died from seeing myself fading into the shadows of the demons. Saints will always feel comfortable with saints. Demons like me is just a reminder to not to get closer. " I've made my decision, I am letting you go. Maybe you are better off without me. I can see that. Eventhough I love you and still need your support in order for me to change, I know you aren't going to lend me a hand anymore. You seems happy when you are with the saints. Hey, I can't aspect you to be in such a happy mood when you are with the demon. Demons can't never be angels. That is Nature's law. I am the fallen. I love you. Sometimes I feel more than that. Still, I am hurt whenever our eyes met. You see me with your poker face. No expression. Goodbye. It is hard but I know only I knew this whole thing. Goodbye. You won't know a single thing. "I am now a wallflower. I see things and understands it.
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