SIGH

I am searching for a place to stay where I can be me and never be mocked by others. It feels like forever but the forever has now come to its end. Now I know I am okay without them. I know my position crystal clear. Maybe it was too late but now I know that the pit stop that I drove by is the place that I am searching for. The search is over, I can only think of the memories that I had together with them. To be back here in my hometown is something that I am not fond of. Not to tell I hate it but I somehow feel like I don’t belong here. I am lost at here. It’s not the place but the people but no, it’s the connotation of both. To label myself as their friends, I don’t think so. Maybe I hate to the fact that they are still making fun of me. Maybe it is me that think I am one of them. Haih, I once had a fight back in Kuantan among my friends. It was a disaster. Misunderstandings and rumors made everything worse. Until a friend of mine said, “I don’t mind ending our friendship coz you know I can do it, I will do it, and I won’t hesitate”. Tears welled up, I sobbed. For some reasons, I fought hard to build back our friendships. I’ve learnt that friends can be found at anywhere but if you have lucks just enough you’ll get you your true friends. When I think of it back, a majestic difference was seen in between them. I miss them. Not them. But them, them. I don’t how to say this but I think He has shown me my true friends. Not that the others aren’t good but I think they understand it. some of them will know what am I talking bout. Like I said before, God has always gives us His guidance in a very unusual way. Sorry, but I think I can see things pretty clear. Now that I can differentiate between companies and foes, I think I’ll stay put and silence. That’s the best way. sorry but thanks. thanks but never mind. InsyaAllah i'll be good.