EFFORTS

         You will be forced to bow down to the reality of life when you cannot keep up with its need. Despite your efforts to stand strong because you have put it with the shits long enough for you to think that, it is worth it, you know the time will eventually come to slap you hard and make you realize that you are playing a 2-person game all by yourself. Your wits will eventually corrode within the time that kills every moment with its power of greed. I never downgrade my own self just to make you see and notice me. I never have downgrade myself for someone whom I am not sure will actually become or be the person I think of. Never have I ever fallen hard on someone who managed to give such impacts that haunt and attached to my vulnerable soul. I see you coming and I welcome you. I beg you to stay because the thoughts of losing you is as hurt as not being able to breathe. I cannot understand you because you are mysterious. You know how to dwell with feelings and signals. I am now constantly bleeding because I cannot control my thoughts and emotions. Sometimes, I cannot wait just to know if you are okay. I become worried as if you are mine in the first place. It is sickening when you appeared in my dreams as someone I want you to be but left me in the morning with the thoughts of knowing the other side of you. i am preparing myself to move on just in case you left me. I hope this journey will have only pit stop,s but never the end. I am walking with bare feet into the midst of the dark forest accompanied by my own very maps that will only show the paths once I am aware of the situations. Every day will be either you texted me or I texted you. I think I know what Adele meant when she muttered “Hello from the other side.”, because that is what we are. Two living souls that exist to be ceased by one’s needs and wants.