THANKS

           You will be labeled according to your status, your family background, achievement, skin color and even if you think you belong in a particular place, you’re wrong. It doesn’t matter where you were born, to which family do you belong to, whose name are you carrying, the world will never be satisfied. The society demands you to put up with them when you were asked to tell them who are you, what do you want to achieve, where do you see yourself in the future, and who is your idol. I think my turning point where I totally changed my path was when I was 15 year olds. I discovered the life of a person who worked hard, sacrificed most of his time contemplating with the hardships in life, a person who climbed despite the talks and cruel judgments came from the surrounding. I began to follow not only the style, but the daily life of this particular person. Soon, I found myself had already adapted to this particular lifestyle. As the time goes by, more people just like him start to rise and I follow up to their movement and achievement until I learned about how to actually impersonate them. Although what I did is actually good and beneficial, I forgot I live in a community where this particular lifestyle doesn’t really get along and suitable because of the diverse differences that clash the judgement of the people. When you have trained yourself to be who you are now, but you have to lower down your own class just to let them in. As I grow older, I see many other potential idols for me to emulate, this time people who are just like me, but had already established their name and throne. Apart from that, I have seen the other side of me where I think if I continue on being like this I’ll end up being a bastard. When you are well trained and really controlled, it’s hard to let people into your life. I am currently, downgrading my own level of perceptive acceptance because of this particular person. But, by letting my guard down, I became vulnerable when I started to think of what others think of me which is bad and not healthy. So I decided to rise above like a rising phoenix. Well, that’s a bit over the top. When I look at how am I actually living my life, I have to say I became more of like a negative mind kind of person. So look back to  the things I had kept reminding me why I decided to lead this particular path, I realized that in life, even if you think you have given enough to make known to the world that this is who you are, you cannot control what they decided to do with your decisions when they will manipulate or use it to bring you down. Maybe when I say I am following this particular lifestyle isn’t really obvious when I know to follow them you can’t really copy and paste every aspect and pixels of what hey have and be them. If I were to do that, God should be liable for plagiarisms. You worry too much until you jeopardize your own capability, you underestimate too much that they backfire you, you overestimate too much that you forgot your own capability or strength.