JICK

Sometimes the hardest part in life is to move on without knowing how to do it and what to expect once you have decided what to become or even where should you start or even end. The hardest part will only be easier if you have guidance to assist you and tell you what you should do or avoid to achieve your goals. The process that allows you to take part in experiencing new things might be temporary considering your disability to comprehend the howls which weakened your wits to go forward. You spend your entire 22 years of living wandering upon something that might be vague or impossible to be achieved and might not even make sense since you cannot undue your genes to change your oneself. You spend your life figuring out who you are if you are not what people think of you so you try your very best to relate yourself with things you find cool, aesthetic enough, rare, not easily being copied to be part of your life and then tried your best to be like one through practice which from time to time become your habits and routine. The constant reminder that you are anomic to your religion and culture has embraced the rebellion side of yourself which has been caged for the past years when you don’t have the strength to set yourself free from the chains of doubts and the burden your religion has put you through. The life as of now will be blurry and the path might be bumpy and thorny but what you do might have a fatal effect to the others around you. Hannah Baker taught us that in life you cannot be overly sensitive and that everyone deals with problems differently and even the tinniest comment could do death to some of us. The capability to interpret the slightest sarcasm that comes out from your enemy’s mouth might be the reason why people tend to be dependent to the ambiguity of logic. Life of a person who is now in the midst of death and lost in finding the truth about nothingness. You tried your best to capture every moment of happiness that you seem to fear will affect or go away once you know things will never be the same.