Darling, if I have the chance to turn back time, I would have done it. I am sorry for being so damaged. I know it hurts a lot. Please, bare with me. I am needy. In need of your existence. My love, the life that we are living is temporary, I am not sure about my feelings for you. I don’t know whether I can keep up with you. I am never good enough for anyone. The things that I do never really affect me positively. I always see things as if it will fade away anytime soon. The thoughts that I have never really comprehend with my surroundings as they are all out of the luscious of my own needs. I am malevolent, that is true. I want to whine about everything, but I know the best medium to let these things go is to pray and mutter thousands of prayers upon Him. I am never thankful for the things that had happened. I need to figure out what do I want and seek. The problem that I am facing right now is that I am lost of the things that I do. I don’t see the importance of doing it. I may have come up with the reasons, but I can’t breathe. I am suffocating by thinking of myself. I am becoming callous. I have stopped on having feelings for anybody. I don’t find anybody special. Even if I do, I know I am out of their league. It’s okay to dream. It doesn’t kill you. I am intoxicated by the self affliction upon myself. I don’t know how to feel. Anymore.
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