BLOOD

I am crowning the deceitful thoughts that destroy most of the misfits that crawl in the midnight towards the glimpse of light. The likes of the saints to perish in the sights of the sinners. I capitulated long time ago when my anguish seems to omit my presence in the world. Up until now, I have cinched my fervor, cognition and consciousness far away from Him and humans. Why? I have learned that when you go too deep you tend to see the frailty of the hypocrisy of the humans. One once said “ give everything even when you get nothing back.”, others said  “don’t give or expect too much”. The asymmetric of both wants and needs that I am now  putting up with seems to blench my perception gradually. The quietude that I show is just something I am perceiving myself to edify on becoming more reasoned, also to tell my surroundings that I have become emotionally unavailable for any liaison. I have tried to elucidate myself to be or feel the needs of affiliations and affections for at least a long period but I have blundered. I have abstruse that one must not open up to anyone or everyone. One must diminish a bit the loop of acquaintances or friends that they have. One must know how to apportion from others at any time. So I decided to eradicate some of the memories and relationship that hang for too long, untouched. The oxygen and smokes that I inhaled is the breath of the dead ones that I have eradicated. I can’t stop from making them shunning away from me. I can't held my hands that were covered with sins that had been tattooed. The inks that I have chosen to ink upon my chest will be the ultimate deeds that I have made with Him. So said the heedless child of God.