TELL

My instincts toward you were never wrong and I know I am never wrong when it comes to this. I have written letters for you to read, but I didn’t find the strength and I am never ready to let you read those confessions because I am afraid that I will lose you for eternity. I don’t know where did things go wrong. I don’t know what makes you change the way you treated me. I want to know what kind of things that I did that makes you go off course without me and left me behind. You have moved on so fast that I couldn’t keep up. I was behind you all the time. Tell me, what can I do to make things back to the way it was, where I can actually feel your warmth and love. I am now the sunshine that fails to shine your day. Tell me what's wrong with us that makes you change your mind? Was it because of a third person? Or I am just your pit stop to your happiness? Tell me. Tell me so that I can decide whether to move on or move forward. It is hard when loving a person has a lot of conditions. I fall in love with you not because of religion, gender, or else. I fall in love with you as a person who has caught me off guard and stole what’s left in my heart. I became the night that wasn’t able to light up your darkness. What have I done to deserve this unrequited love? I have lost the game when you decided to pull out the string that hold us together. If only I can make you see the efforts that I have made. Efforts that I will never make to other people. Show me the mistakes that I made or you see that makes you change into someone whom I can hardly recognize. Tell me if everything that I do weren’t enough. Tell me if you don’t feel anything when I give my everything to make you know and realize that I would like to take care of you. Tell me if all the signals that came from you were nothing but just plain signals. Tell me if I am over-thinking . Tell me if I am crazy and just imagining things. Tell me. Tell me all this while,  those words that come out from your mouth and mine when we said we miss each were just nothing. I still can’t face you and let things go because I am deeply in love with you.